I love learning things.

I love learning new things. [I love reading in general and maybe I'll talk about that some other time] It can be things from my syllabus, a new programming language[I absolutely love learning new languages] or a library or framework. I even tried [and failed time and time again] learning japanese. I'm currently reading a book called How to Prove It by Daniel J. Velleman.

And also a book called Introduction to Applied Linear Algebra by Stephen Boyd and Lieven Vandenberghe.

I'm taking a course on Machine Learning Specialization by Andrew NG on coursera.

And also learning The Go programming language.

All this while studying for six subjects this semester.

You're probably thinking "what a pretentious asshole" and I'm one but that is not the problem. You see the problem starts when another "interesting" thing comes up, or when the thing I am currently learning get kinda hard and I have to put way too much effort into it. Something it doesn't have to be anything. If I skip learning the thing I was learning for significant amount of time, there is a high chance I wouldn't want to continue it. Same goes for the projects I do.

So what do I plan to do to avoid this kind of stuff?

Absolutely Nothing.

Why would I? I am learning something.

I have huge respect for [and am a little envious of] people who can just commit to a single thing and work on it for months and years but that stuff is not for me[atleast not yet]. If I can't commit to anything specific then so be it. And who knows, while I'm learning and trying out a bunch of stuff, I might find something I can just work on for years without getting any fatigue [I really hope so].

I have tried to reduce the time I spent on reddit, youtube and stuff. This way I can try even more stuff.

So what is the problem? Nothing I guess. Told you I was a pretentious asshole. Now, if I can just accept the fact that I don't have to force myself to commit to anything specific.

But I'm worried. What if I don't find anything until its too late. What if by the time I figure out the thing I want to do, it has advanced so far ahead that I can't catch up.

Too much deep stuff so can I just say, I'm listening to No.6 Collaboration Project and it is such a banger. Every single song on this album.

Back to brooding. What about job. I don't want to stuck at a job I don't wanna do for years because I can't find the thing I wanna do and I can't climb up in the current job because I just can't force myself into it.

I don't have anything to add but I don't wanna end this post on a pensive mood.

So, sorry anyone who got flash banged by my previous post.

[Ooh, I love it when you do it like that And when you're close up, give me the shivers]

The music went past No.6 Collaboration Project and now its playing other Ed Sheeran song. Most of his songs are bangers. Now it's playing Bad Liar by Imagine Dragons. Feels kinda nostalgic.

Also I'm alone today and it's night time. Perfect time to watch a horror movie[Also perfect time to watch some other movies but today we get scared].